It's Been a Year

  • MotherAnn 4 years ago
    Yesterday marked the one year anniversary of my best friend and husband, Jon. Because of the Pandemic I am in quarantine due to being exposed to the virus a week ago. My son-in-law's twin brother was at my daughter's house helping install a new water heater and I invited him to join us for my dad's 84th birthday lunch. The next day he woke up with a sore throat and fever. He tested positive for the virus, which put my parents, myself, my daughter and son-in-law in quarantine. Thankfully my SIL's twin has a very mild case and feels OK. My parents have not displayed any symptoms as of yet and neither have I. My daughter didn't feel well yesterday, but nothing serious, just under the weather. My son-in-law is OK and had a test on Friday of which he is awaiting his results. He had to be tested before he can return to work.

    With yesterday's anniversary date this now means I have experienced every "First" without Jon. Does that mean that magically every day from here on out will be easier? I doubt it. Does it mean that each holiday and family get-together suddenly is so much brighter? I doubt it. I still love him and I still miss him just as much as I did one year ago. However, I am a realist, as my children and other family members are, and we know that as much as we love and miss those who have passed, life still goes on for the rest of us and new memories must be made. It is the memories that keep me going. Because we loved each other we made many memories and I don't want those memories to fade. Not for me and not for my children. I want my children to remember and pass those memories down to my grandchildren.

    Most of my friends are amazed at how I still cook, even when it's just me. Cooking and spending time in the kitchen is something Jon and I enjoyed doing together. I still love to eat and I still love my kitchen. I have learned how to cut recipes down to make them more manageable for just one person. I have learned to share with my neighbors. I have learned my freezer is my friend.

    I wish you all a Merry Christmas and pray that this next year will allow us to once again enjoy doing the things we love to do with our family and friends. Stay safe and stay healthy!
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